Mondays I am such an unhappy person. I dread Mondays because I have to go back to work. But it isn't a simple dread of a work-a-day routine. It makes me so incredibly unhappy to have to go to work that I know I desperately need a change. You know the work isn't really all that bad. But I think the things that have taken place there over the last couple of years have destroyed my dedication and desire to make a difference and so my interest has been lost and I no longer wish to perform my duties to the growth and advancement of the position.
I walked 8 miles yesterday. I didn't want to walk at all but I did want to go further than I had last weekend. I may not want to walk but I do it anyway because I have a goal and that is to go to the Camino. With my job I no longer have something to work toward. There is little to nothing that holds my interest. So I go now to maintain the business as it is until such time as I can afford to leave. But every day I dread going there and every day I come home exhausted. Maybe leaving sooner rather than later would help. I really do not know.
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