I have been so relieved since I turned in my resignation. Much of my depression has lifted and my outlook is so much more positive that I cannot believe I waited so long to do this. I should have gone to Spain this year and resigned last winter. But things, I believe, happen for a reason and this is now my time to make change happen for me.
I have two girls staying with me while their mother is on vacation. I thought it would be a good distraction, but instead it is becoming something of a frustration. The younger girl is so manipulative and demanding to be the center of attention that she has developed habits that continuously get her into trouble in order to get attention. She is resistant to hygiene claiming incapacity and hence the couch in this house, not very clean in the first place, now smells of urine and I am disgusted. The older daughter is wonderful and one of the best adjusted youth of her age that I know - and I know a number of children. This too shall pass.
This morning I had the opportunity to walk with the giant marshmallow a full 6 miles without the accompaniment of children and it was wonderful. I can hardly wait until I can do this every day. It is so beautiful out in the fall and the temperatures are so moderate that walking is a pleasure no matter how far I can go.
The goddess came over yesterday with her two monkeys and it was such a nice afternoon having them visit. It really helped my perspective on the girls I am watching. I very much enjoy visiting with the goddess. She has invited me for Thanksgiving and I have told her that I am going to adopt her as my family.
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